The Mandelbear's Musings

I Got (some) Things Done -- exercises every day, and singing every day except Tuesday and yesterday. Tuesday I took Desti and Ticia to the vet, which definitely counts as a Thing. So does the walk I took yesterday morning. Nevertheless there's a lot more that I'm not doing, which is worrisome.

Some of the exercises (from my PT appointment Friday before last) started hurting my knees last Sunday, so I've been doing far fewer of those, and appear to be recovering. Which is more than I can say for my mental health. I think it's only slightly about losing Colleen -- I can deal with that. It's mostly anticipatory grief over having to sell the house on Whidbey Island, and for the impending death of American democracy at the hands of the Repugnant Party and their Supreme Kangaroo Court.

I've had several grief/anxiety/whatever attacks over the last week -- the one this morning was the worst. It had me curled up in bed shaking for over an hour; breathing exercises and cat cuddles, but... I'm probably still not completely over it.

In the links, The Universe Is Not Locally Real, and the Physics Nobel Prize Winners Proved It (more detail Friday). And if you need several hours of pleasant rabbit-holing, there's the Complete Catalogue of the Painting of Johannes Vermeer.

Notes & links:
1002Su
  * up 6:30ish; S=; exercises
    % heating pad after first set. Only managed about 10s of wall squat, and nearly fell
    -> added the leg lifts; wall squat 20s only half-way down.  Worried about fall risk
    % two more sets; stopped s2s at 14 and skipped wall squat - R knee started hurting
    -> knee brace
  * move AX platinum card to wallet for vet payment
  * pick up bankers' boxes at Office Depot
  * kf band practice:  Riverheart, Inherit the Earth, Ship of Stone, Rambling Silver Rose
    % N explained the emotional subtext in Riverheart, which of course I'd missed
  * drive up to RE.  sunset 6:49; 1:20 RS to clinton via 99, 1:05 via I5
  * got to the dock about 7pm; ferry was hourly so caught the 7:30; arrived at RE 8:40ish
  * pack: * levels.  There's a 24", a 48:, and a short one with magnet
  * pack: * Japanese textbooks, * woodworking books
  * pack: * the mic cable bin,  . knee and ankle braces

1003Mo
  * up 6ish; S=6:40, W=198.0, BP=115/73, P=61; exercises, shower;
    -> exercises: 3 sets of horizontal; partial set of s2s with the bed raised; stopped
       because casters don't lock.  No wall squats.
  @ Dr. Emily Anhalt on Twitter: "Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the
    love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of
    your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is
    just love with no place to go. - Jamie Anderson"
  @ Written in stone: the world's first trigonometry revealed in an ancient Babylonian
    tablet (via thnidu | And we think we're advanced... (No joke, real science)
    Old Babylonian mathematics and
    Plimpton 322: A new understanding of the OB tablet Plimpton 322 - YouTube
  * singing:  Riverheart, Eyes Like the Morning
  * 1:30-2 (organizer)Kara
    -> mostly worked through the mountain of paper, mostly mail that I didn't have to keep
  * pack: woodworking tools for k
  * pack: mic stands,  . knee and ankle braces
  * pack: shelving, soft cat carrier,  * coffee scoop
  * 6ish drive down to RS to be there for the cats' vet appointment tomorrow
  -> ferry's running single-boat today.  Arrived at the backup line 6ish; on the 7ish
  -> singing: Riverheart, _a capella_ in the waiting lot.
  -> at RS ~8:20.

1004Tu
  * up ~3:45; S=4:??; exercises - a little haphazard; no s3s or wall squats as of 5:40
  * up 8:14ish after exercises
  % apparently I did _not_ bring the 24" or 48" level, even though I staged it.
  @ DeepL Translate: The world's most accurate translator
  @ On Petition For A Writ Of Certiorari | To The United States Court Of Appeals |
    For The Sixth Circuit | BRIEF OF THE ONION AS AMICUS CURIAE |
    IN SUPPORT OF PETITIONER  (eftychia | QotD)
    Haven't had that much fun reading a legal brief since GrokLaw went off the web.
  * 1:30 Desti, Ticia Fremont Animal Hospital - 206-593-2442
    3601 Fremont Ave N, Unit 204 Seattle, WA 98103
  * 15min:  dishes - 5:20, which is a bit late
  * 15min:  fix chord c+p errors in Inherit the Earth
  % meloxicam with pm drugs

1005We
  * Awake 4ish; S=4:5?; exercises: 3 sets horizontal.
    % a little pain in L hip -> heat (after moving Desti off the heating pad)
    -> 3 sets of the horizontal exercises.  1 set of s2s,  10s of wall squat.
    -> knee at something like P=2.5 -- there, but totally ignorable.
  * RE Recording gear arrived - RØDE M5 | Matched Pair Small-diaphragm Condenser Microphone
    and Stereo Bar
    -> download docs.  Nicely packaged.
  * The wallet I ordered arrived; thicker than expected because of bill compartment, but
    that's also the right size for my vax card.  The card slots are much tighter, though,
    and it's thicker.  The slots may stretch, like in the old wallet.  But still too thick
  % meloxicam with pm drugs
  * singing: Riverheart, Ship of Stone (both off-book)
  : The CPAP humidifier chamber I had down at RS seems to have gone walkabout.  Probably
    put it in a drawer.  -> on one of the shelves in the closet, behind the extra meds

1006Th
  & awake 3:45; S=4:?; 
    % cool enough to warrant putting on a nightshirt
  * up 6ish; ; cat cuddles, exercises (3x horiz.  +10 situps, 10 half-pushups)
    10 sit2stand from bed -- reasonably firm at the foot end
    -> very slight pain back of R. shin when walking, so cut that short
  * 2n/1   CPAP RS:  change nosepiece -> every other month while bilocated
  @ 19 Android Settings You May Not Know About | WIRED some are useful
  @ Meta Rethinks the Philosophy of the Facebook Feed | WIRED more reasons to dump FB
  @ mjg59 | Cloud desktops aren't as good as you'd think
  @ What not to dare - West Country Voices (via Andrew Levi on Twitter Focused on UK, but many points apply to US
    " Change is always an essential part of long-term success, in business and in
      government. Stupid change, led by stupid people, isn’t. "
  @ Empirical Failures of the Claim That Autistic People Lack a Theory of Mind - PMC
    " In this article, we review empirical evidence that fails to support the claim that
      autistic people are uniquely impaired, much less that all autistic people are
      universally impaired, on theory-of-mind tasks. "
    " The only characteristic that reliably patterned with theory-of-mind performance was
      language dexterity. "
  * 12:30 start getting cats into carriers for 1:30 appointment
  * 1:30 house cats - vet
  * 4:30 rehearsal (me and N):  Riverheart, Rosie, Lock Keeper
    nice talk with k afterward about music, singing, guitar, etc.
  : TIL: Calculate a Two-Dimensional Primitive Root Diffuser
    Sound diffuser guide: Everything you need to know | Acoustic Geometry
    16 Ideas and Free Plans for DIY Sound Diffuser Panel - Better Soundproofing
  % meloxicam with pm drugs
  * installed DreamStation 1 (the old one) in place of the DS2.
  * install redshift on Panther

1008Fr  * litter boxen (E')
  & awake 2:35ish; sitting, no mask.  Again.
  * up 7:15ish; W=198.8; exercises
    % feels like there's a slight muscle pull high on the L inner thigh.
    -> I need to remember to check discord et. al. before starting exercises
    -> ended up not having time to finish my first cup of coffee before E' came at 9am
       (probably in large part because I got distracted by the web)
  * singing:  Riverheart, Eyes Like the Morning (off-book, in the studio.  A little wonky)
  @ The 2022 Web Almanac (WP Tavern)
  : .gitignore files cannot be symlinks.  Only affected Mathilda, so minimal impact.
  * Rehearsal:  everything except Riverheart, Lock Keeper, and Eyes Like the Morning
    -* need to put Eyes into the song list.
  * exercise: add deltoid stretch (doorway stretch) to the set
  @ Complete Catalogue of the Painting of Johannes Vermeer (via A Vermeer at National Gallery of Art is not a Vermeer, museum confirms - WaPo
  % 9:25 minor grief attack
  % meloxicam
  @ Use abbrev to Enter Special Characters - The Emacs Cat
  % 9:30 as it turns out, between the Supreme Court and the work I'm not having done on the
    house (because it would mean phone calls), I'm in pretty bad shape.

1008Sa
  & Awake 2ish
  * up 8:15; W=198.8, S=6:21; exercises (somewhat haphazard because cats)
  * walk: W 2 blocks to park
  @ The Universe Is Not Locally Real, and the Physics Nobel Prize Winners Proved It 
    section heads: "FOR WHOM THE BELL TOLLS" and "THE BELL TOLLS FOR THEE".  Of course.
    Phys. Rev. Lett. 118, 060401 (2017) - Cosmic Bell Test: Measurement Settings from
    Milky Way Stars Clever.  Uses two different stars as random number generators.
  @ Bell's theorem - Wikipedia
  @ @tinytempest on Twitter: "...you can set your Twitter feed to show you reverse
    chronological tweets and not tweets the algorithm decides you should see [...] Here's
    how." Twitter’s Timeline Algorithm Buries External Links | by Jack Bandy
  @ React and Next.js is DEAD — Something New is (Finally) Replacing It (For Good)
    Overview - Qwik
    " Qwik is a front-end framework for building resumable applications that start-up
      instantly on the client. Qwik achieves this by focusing on its philosophy of
      downloading and executing only the code that is strictly necessary to perform the
      user-triggered action. Qwik is a fine-grained lazy-loading framework representing a
      fundamentally new approach to building web applications. " Interesting.
  % meloxicam, heat.